Well folks,
Although I'm sure few of you can say you actually MISSED me, you may have noticed that it has been more than a week since I posted on here. The reason for this is that I've been sicker than sick.
I'm not scoping for sympathy here, but maybe for any thoughts anyone has on the situation. I'll elaborate.
Warning! This is long. And boring. And all about how sick Gurm is. If you aren't up for that kind of read, skip it!
Early Summer (April/May timeframe) I got a little ill. In addition to getting a little ill (flu-like symptoms) my eyes bugged out - whenever I looked at a computer screen (or anything with high contrast, to be honest) it seemed to be... pulsating. Not flickering really as much as pulsing. Bizarro. Went to see the Opthalmologist, he noted that my pulse was VERY high (120 resting, high even for me - my normal resting is like 95) and sent me off to see my regular doctor, who took me off of all my decongestants and allergy meds. Things seemed to settle down, especially after a week in Maine to sleep and relax and recuperate.
Fast forward to about two weeks ago.
I started noticing more floaters (you know, those weird blob things in your eyes that are mostly transparent most of the time) than normal. I've always had a few, and they've flared up from time to time, but this was an unusual number.
Called the Opthalmologist, they said it just happens to some people, but let them know if it combines with other symptoms, or if I notice spots of light and dark, or whatever.
Well, didn't get a chance to call them back because last Thursday I got SICK. REALLY SICK. Wake up nauseous and dizzy and shivering sick. Every day for the long weekend, I woke up feeling like this. Was marginally better in the afternoon and evening, went to bed feeling ok, and woke up sick.
Now I've had THIS happen before for an extended period, several years ago I picked up Giardiasis (aka Giardia) from bad well water in rural Massachusetts. Blech. My eyes got worse all weekend as well, to the point where I couldn't even LOOK at a computer screen, it just hurt.
So Monday morning I call my doctor (yeah it's still a holiday but I was home by then). Told him my symptoms, he looked at my chart and said "yeah looks like exactly the same symptoms as Giardia from a few years back, do you FEEL the same as then?" I said yes, so he put me on Flagyl.
I'll be all done with the Flagyl today. So tomorrow I ought to feel better, right? Problem is my eyes are still bugged out. They're better - I can actually use the computer the last day or two without pain, but they're still very photosensitive, my night vision (what there was of it) is still shot, and there are still all these spots and floaters that weren't there before.
So a couple days back (halfway through my treatment) I went to see my doctor, who ran a bunch of bloodwork. All normal. Tested for Lyme disease (which would account for the spots as well as the photosensitivity) - and that came back negative.
So now I have to see the Opthalmologist on Monday, and perhaps the NeuroOpthalmologist after that. And I still can't see straight.
This is more than a little scary, since the only thing I'm qualified to do in this world to make a living is... work on the computer.
I know that in the long run there is a laser procedure (to the tune of about $1200 an eye) to zap floaters, but I'm concerned about the near term as much as the long term.
Everything I look at is a bit ... grainy. I don't know how to describe it really, but it's just a bit grainy. Like the whole world is coming through the lens of a Sony Camcorder in mixed light (Sony camcorders are pretty infamous for not dealing real well with mixed / low light, causing a dithered or pixellated effect).
The floaters are irritating, but not the major issue with working on the computer. The major issue is light sensitivity - anything bright (for example a CRT) has a tendency to persist a little too long. Kinda irksome. Makes focusing around on a screen a wee bit difficult. Like I said, today is better than yesterday... which was better than the day before. Doesn't mean I'm happy with the situation.
So, I have a mystery sickness again. I'm almost done feeling crappy (well, we'll know in the morning), but my eyes are still whacked out.
I was actually kind of hoping that I tested POSITIVE for Lyme disease - I had most of the symptoms (including aching joints, etc.) and it would have fit neatly (and has an easy, albeit lengthy, treatment) and been a nice answer.
Other possibilities put forward by my doctor are that the antifungal I was on (Lamisil) causes "severe visual disturbances" in 1% of patients who use it... urk! We'll know in a couple weeks once that's out of my system if it had anything to do with the situation.
In the meantime, I'm alive. I can drive, I can watch TV (well, if I don't glance around too much), I can use the computer for an hour here and there, and I've been spending a LOT of time getting reacquainted with my guitars.
So, why did I even post this? Maybe to vent. I've been very frustrated. My family is nowhere nearby, so I've been home alone taking care of Logan while trying not to move around too much and keep the dizziness at bay.
Maybe it's a quest for greater understanding. I've become a bit philosophical in the last few days. When you're sick for weeks on end, your mind starts playing tricks on you. You can't really remember a time when you didn't wake up feeling dizzy and sick, nor can you imagine waking up tomorrow feeling well.
Also I have been a bit frightened. I've had to re-evaluate life. Obviously I'm not blind. Hopefully I'm not GOING blind. But if working on the computer remaind extremely difficult, my life priorities will have to be rethought. And I'll certainly not be taking my vision for granted any more!
So, this is getting long. I'll wrap up with some thoughts/questions.
1. Anyone have any experience with Lyme disease or its associated syndromes? Ever hear of a false negative? My physician assures me that while false positives are common, false negatives are much less so. I have, however, exhibited MANY of the symptoms, so I'm a bit skeptical of the negative result.
2. Any of this ring some amazing coincidental bell with someone? "Gee, I had that! It sucked! And..."
3. Sympathy was not the point of my post, although it's always nice to know that people care. I suppose I've been a bit lacking on that front this week, what with my family all 300 miles away and busy with their own lives.
Ok, I'm signing off now. TTFN!
- Gurm
Although I'm sure few of you can say you actually MISSED me, you may have noticed that it has been more than a week since I posted on here. The reason for this is that I've been sicker than sick.
I'm not scoping for sympathy here, but maybe for any thoughts anyone has on the situation. I'll elaborate.
Warning! This is long. And boring. And all about how sick Gurm is. If you aren't up for that kind of read, skip it!
Early Summer (April/May timeframe) I got a little ill. In addition to getting a little ill (flu-like symptoms) my eyes bugged out - whenever I looked at a computer screen (or anything with high contrast, to be honest) it seemed to be... pulsating. Not flickering really as much as pulsing. Bizarro. Went to see the Opthalmologist, he noted that my pulse was VERY high (120 resting, high even for me - my normal resting is like 95) and sent me off to see my regular doctor, who took me off of all my decongestants and allergy meds. Things seemed to settle down, especially after a week in Maine to sleep and relax and recuperate.
Fast forward to about two weeks ago.
I started noticing more floaters (you know, those weird blob things in your eyes that are mostly transparent most of the time) than normal. I've always had a few, and they've flared up from time to time, but this was an unusual number.
Called the Opthalmologist, they said it just happens to some people, but let them know if it combines with other symptoms, or if I notice spots of light and dark, or whatever.
Well, didn't get a chance to call them back because last Thursday I got SICK. REALLY SICK. Wake up nauseous and dizzy and shivering sick. Every day for the long weekend, I woke up feeling like this. Was marginally better in the afternoon and evening, went to bed feeling ok, and woke up sick.
Now I've had THIS happen before for an extended period, several years ago I picked up Giardiasis (aka Giardia) from bad well water in rural Massachusetts. Blech. My eyes got worse all weekend as well, to the point where I couldn't even LOOK at a computer screen, it just hurt.
So Monday morning I call my doctor (yeah it's still a holiday but I was home by then). Told him my symptoms, he looked at my chart and said "yeah looks like exactly the same symptoms as Giardia from a few years back, do you FEEL the same as then?" I said yes, so he put me on Flagyl.
Flagyl: Common name for Metronidazole, it's an anti-parasitic drug. Very nasty stuff. Symptoms of the illness are nausea, diarrhea, dizziness, wooziness, tiredness, and loss of appetite. Side-effects of Flagyl are... nausea, diarrhea, dizziness, wooziness... you get the idea. The terrible thing about Flagyl is you can't tell if you're getting any better until you stop taking the medicine.
So a couple days back (halfway through my treatment) I went to see my doctor, who ran a bunch of bloodwork. All normal. Tested for Lyme disease (which would account for the spots as well as the photosensitivity) - and that came back negative.
So now I have to see the Opthalmologist on Monday, and perhaps the NeuroOpthalmologist after that. And I still can't see straight.
This is more than a little scary, since the only thing I'm qualified to do in this world to make a living is... work on the computer.
I know that in the long run there is a laser procedure (to the tune of about $1200 an eye) to zap floaters, but I'm concerned about the near term as much as the long term.
Everything I look at is a bit ... grainy. I don't know how to describe it really, but it's just a bit grainy. Like the whole world is coming through the lens of a Sony Camcorder in mixed light (Sony camcorders are pretty infamous for not dealing real well with mixed / low light, causing a dithered or pixellated effect).
The floaters are irritating, but not the major issue with working on the computer. The major issue is light sensitivity - anything bright (for example a CRT) has a tendency to persist a little too long. Kinda irksome. Makes focusing around on a screen a wee bit difficult. Like I said, today is better than yesterday... which was better than the day before. Doesn't mean I'm happy with the situation.
So, I have a mystery sickness again. I'm almost done feeling crappy (well, we'll know in the morning), but my eyes are still whacked out.
I was actually kind of hoping that I tested POSITIVE for Lyme disease - I had most of the symptoms (including aching joints, etc.) and it would have fit neatly (and has an easy, albeit lengthy, treatment) and been a nice answer.
Other possibilities put forward by my doctor are that the antifungal I was on (Lamisil) causes "severe visual disturbances" in 1% of patients who use it... urk! We'll know in a couple weeks once that's out of my system if it had anything to do with the situation.
In the meantime, I'm alive. I can drive, I can watch TV (well, if I don't glance around too much), I can use the computer for an hour here and there, and I've been spending a LOT of time getting reacquainted with my guitars.
So, why did I even post this? Maybe to vent. I've been very frustrated. My family is nowhere nearby, so I've been home alone taking care of Logan while trying not to move around too much and keep the dizziness at bay.
Maybe it's a quest for greater understanding. I've become a bit philosophical in the last few days. When you're sick for weeks on end, your mind starts playing tricks on you. You can't really remember a time when you didn't wake up feeling dizzy and sick, nor can you imagine waking up tomorrow feeling well.
Also I have been a bit frightened. I've had to re-evaluate life. Obviously I'm not blind. Hopefully I'm not GOING blind. But if working on the computer remaind extremely difficult, my life priorities will have to be rethought. And I'll certainly not be taking my vision for granted any more!
So, this is getting long. I'll wrap up with some thoughts/questions.
1. Anyone have any experience with Lyme disease or its associated syndromes? Ever hear of a false negative? My physician assures me that while false positives are common, false negatives are much less so. I have, however, exhibited MANY of the symptoms, so I'm a bit skeptical of the negative result.
2. Any of this ring some amazing coincidental bell with someone? "Gee, I had that! It sucked! And..."
3. Sympathy was not the point of my post, although it's always nice to know that people care. I suppose I've been a bit lacking on that front this week, what with my family all 300 miles away and busy with their own lives.
Ok, I'm signing off now. TTFN!
- Gurm
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